halfacanuck

Thirty spokes converge at the hub,
but emptiness completes the wheel.

Clay is shaped to make a pot,
and what's useful is its emptiness.

Carve fine doors and windows,
but the room is useful in its emptiness.

What is
is beneficial, while what is not
also proves useful.

- Lao Tzu, Tao Te Ching

After what might be called a bit of a hiatus I decided it was time to get my blog set back up again, and get back to writing. It's been too long, but I think I've just not been ready to do it until now.

What was holding me back? Why have I not blogged, or even written, anything substantial in the last 14 months? I think it's because since leaving my wife and step-kids last February I've wanted to write about it here, I've wanted to talk about how I feel and how I'm re-adjusting to life on my own. But those scars were just too fresh, not just for me but for my family, and I was afraid of hurting them all over again.

But I think now the time has come when I can talk about it more, now that my emotions have settled and my vision cleared, now that — hopefully, anyway — my family either isn't reading my blog any more, or have come to terms with it enough themselves that I'm not going to reopen those wounds. Or maybe I'm deluding myself. I guess we'll see.

So that's that. I'm ready to write again. I want to write again. It feels good.

(Hopefully what I write next will be more interesting than this, though.)